LAST

For some reason i thought my previous blog was our last blog but i was wrong. maybe i was a bit excited about this semester ending lol. but i should have blogged earlier when i was in a happy mood because now im forcing myself to write when i really dont feel up to it because i am in such a crappy mood. But talking about my mood is making this blog longer. so i hope you'll have a great summer and i really enjoyed this class but im in such a bad mood right now! i have to go ;)(!

LAST CLASS BLOG!

So this is supposedly the last blog, but I think I'm going to continue this blogging journey...
Anywho, well SCHOOL has been on my mind alot lately and I began to think how does a full-time student have so much time on their hands and still maintain good grades in school....hmmm?
thinking... thinking....thinking. ok, I know. IMPOSSIBLE. This semester has been so difficult for me.
HANDS DOWN, the University of Memphis is a great school , I love it, and I'm returning for my sophomore year, but darn it, it's challenging. Not complaining, but geeeezz! It's just gen-eds! Im so happy that  this semester is finally over, I can finally have a break because I need it. I have had a migrain for a week and a half and it will not go away. Everytime I turn around there is a paper due, test, quiz, this and that....(PULLS MY HAIR OUT). LITERALLY. My grades are great but without a doubt I AM TIRED. The sad part is, IM ONLY A FRESHMAN lol. But hey, I'm in for the ride. (ugh). I know that sometimes things will get hard but I only have to remain the strong woman that I and take care of my responsibilities because I am held accountable for whatever results in the end! Im juuuuuuust saying, HEY MAN, IM READY FOR THE SUMMER! HOW ABOUT YOU!

"Education is the Key"

One day when I was at work..... I was  cleaning our lobby and two customers were sitting in the lobby eating. They were carrying on a conversation and keep making strange faces while they kept staring at me.... (I HATE WHEN PEOPLE STARE AT ME)
But I went on, and did not pay it any attention...
they finally asked, "Excuse me ma'am, how much do they pay you'll to work here?"
and I replied, "minimum wage which is $7.25."

customers: "WOW...THATS IT!!!" as they shook there head...and kind of turned red in the face.

Customers: "MAn how do you guys make it off that?"

Me: Weeelllll, I'm only 18 and there isn't much I need, Im a full- time student and this is jusgt a little income, my parent help me! So I can't say for others and the hours that I receive are pretty good, so my check is pretty good for an "18" year old, now for the 30-50 year olds that work here I can't say much about them..(giggles)

Customer: ok. I guess I can understand that

*I continued cleaning my lobby and they carried on

I've always asked my self the exact same thing....I would say to myself, man I don't know how these people make a living here... I assume they are struggling, on welfare, depending on the government etc.

UGH! I wish they would take all of that away.... people are so lazy...GO TO COLLEGE! GET A DEGREE! AND A CAREER! AND MORE MONEY!

yes, I make minimum wage, but my job is also NOT my career. There is ABSOULUTELY no way I'll be there when I'm 30 and up. I'll be done before or at 22! that's a promise!

That few questions that the men asked,  intrigued me because honestly...

I dont know the answer....WHY ARE PEOPLE SO LAZY?
WHY DO PEOPLE THINK IT IS OK TO DEPEND ON THE GOVERNMENT?
WHY DOES THE GOVERNMENT KEEP GIVING?


GET YOUR LAZY BUTTS OUT AND GET A JOB

GO TO SCHOOL


GET A DEGREE
 DOOOO SOMETHING!!!


EDUCATION IS THE KEY PEOPLE!!!

(TAKES DEEP BREATH)


THIS IS JUST MY OPINION

SO HEY! (HUMPS SHOULDERS!)

.....THEHEHEHE!

HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!

WELP!

Blogging is a bit boring now. At first I was excited to blog UM....not anymore. I get tired of driving to the uc just to BLOG...boooooooooooooooo!!!! lol. But hey, it's for a grade, so I do it. Its weird because in the beginning it was interesting to read others blog post but now, they're so short and BORING. I have absoulutely nothing to talk about...tehehe! I wonder how will class be tomorrow...hmmmm, WHY IS OUR CLASS SO QUIET?  Maybe my next post will be interesting, but today is just one of those days where I REALLY DONT CARE! hmmmm, maybe because it's raining out today. You may think im crazy, or does it sound like I'm talking to myself? I do feel a bit weird because im typing a lot of NOTHING....just words...AND. im actually about to post it for my BLOG OF THE DAY, but  HEY!
WELL
HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!

emotions

sometime emotions get the best of you and that is exactly what i am dealing with at the moment. i really dont feel like blogging, talking, thinking or anything. usually im excited about blogging. but today/tonight is just isnt the day or night to do this. But i know it is for a grade so i drove all the way to campus to complete my assignment. (sighs) sorry. maybe next time. my mind is BLANK. so I dont feel like editing my post, this is just FREE. i dont care. not tonight...
sorry guys.

"MY" DREAMS!

My dreams are not that big to the point where they can't come true. All I ever want out of life is to be successful at what I love to do and the few interests that I have. I always dream of dancing professionally on a BIG STAGE! literally. So when you work hard and "meet people that know people". The outcome is BULLS***! At least here in Memphis. WAIT________ I LOVE MY CITY, but I've always been told "Cici, you have to get out of Memphis if you want to make it". Well, I don't believe that. I believe I can make a difference right here in Memphis. We have good talent right here in our city. Dancers, Musicians, Poetry Writers so on and so forth. BUT! we are overlooked by sooooo many cities. Another thing that i've noticed (THAT DRIVES ME CRAZY) about our city is we NEVER SUPPORT EACH OTHER. As if we are competiting against one another when all we need is the SUPPORT! We should be competing against the states that have such BIG MOUTHS! So if you see someone doing great, please, CONGRATULATE them. It really makes that person feel great to hear so many popsitive things. Not only does it make them feel good, it also increases the motivation, the drive. SO, CIERA WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS BLOG????? Well, lately I've been working hard at what I love to do. After a while I began to feel used for an odd reason. Realizing that HMMMM! feelings dont just come, they all have a reason. The difficult thing is finding out the REAL reason you have this certain feeling. As I sat down thinking to myself......"Ciera open your eyes." forcing myself to do so, NOW, I can clearly see:
1. I've met sooooo many NEW people (WHICH IS GREAT) OK....
2.MAJORITY of them are fradulent, betraying, phony....THE  LIST IS INFINTE!!! SMH!

It hurts so bad, to give something that you love your all yet you are being played around with the entire time. How can one do such thing. So as a result, almost no one will see my face. I'm so sick of it, it's RIDIC!
MEMPHIS DANCERS (ANY DANCERS) COMMENT PLEASE! TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK, TELL ME ABOUT AN EXPERIENCE YOU'VE ENCOUNTERED. HOW DID IT MAKE YOU FEEL? WHAT WAS YOUR MOTIVATION? DID YOU ADDRESS THE SITUATION?

AND FOLLOW ME BECAUSE I LOVE TO HEAR FEEDBACK FROM EVERYONE!

FUNNY DAY AT "MY JOB"

So I went to work a little early today. Everything was going fine even though we were very slow and had 0 customers :) but hey, easy money for me,

 so NO COMPLAINTS. Suddenly, we got a little rush. A few in the lobby and a few in the drive thru as well. Hmmm. ok! Well as I was working at MY JOB,

 I began to start running in circles because we were getting a bit busy for only 2 employees. As I replied to every customer, "THANKS, HAVE GREAT DAY". a tall light skinned BOOSTER approached me(YEA A BOOSTER):

booster: yea, yea, someone told me to come up here said you wanted to buy something

IM THINKING WHAT THE HELL?

I wasn't paying him any attention because I didn't know he was talking to me because:
1. I didnt tell anyone anything
2. I dont by anything from BOOSTERS
3.ESPCIALLY NOT A MY JOB

So as I handed him his food and said the same as I said to everyone else, " THANKS, HAVE A GREAT DAY" I noticed he was still standing at our counter just looking.

Me: Sir, how may I help you?
BOOSTER: yea, im about to bring the bags in, in a minute
Me: No thanks, im not interested (TRYING TO BE NICE)

So he yells in the kitchen at the cook,

BOOSTER: Hey, I got coach bags, EVERYTHANG..
Cook: lemme see.

As the booster looks around for about five minutes to ensure that no police are around, he brings this huge black garbage bag inside. Pulls out all of this CRAP (fake bags, all kinds, so if you're interested let me know lol). My facial expressions are say, " really, are you really serious???"
Cook: thanks (walks off)

I TOLD HIM, "NO ONE WANTS TO BUY FAKE BAGS"

OMG!

WHY DID I SAY THAT???

this man gets so angry WHY? because he knows for a fact that everything in that GARBAGE bag was fake. smdh!



BOOSTER: HOW IN THE (BEEP) YOU GONE TELL ME MY (BEEEP) FAKE? YOU DON'T KNOW (BEEP). YOU (BEEP).

interrupts the lobby of customers asking:

WHAT THE (BEEEEP) THAT (BEEP) TALKING ABOUT

it goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on


for about 10 min
and its so entertaining to see someone argue about something they are so sure about yet they are so upset.
He told me that I was broke and I was hating on his hustle.
AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I WOULD NEVER CONDONE SUCH STUPIDITY.

as soon as this happened I knew it would definetly be a blog post!
STAY AWAY FROM BOOSTERS
TIPS ON AUTHENTIC:
pay attention to letters
real leather is thick not thin
real leather is thick
real purses are not sold for 40.00 lol.

GET REAL!

OMG BAD BREATH!

OK! This may be a crazy topic but it was ridic today!

1.As i was sitting in class, psych to be exact, I was wondering where in the heck this awful smell was coming from. There was a girl sitting to the right of me and a male sitting to the left of me. Well, the girl got up and went to the bathroom and the smell smacked me in my face. My reaction was like WOW! (AS I COVERED MY NOSE). I was thinking to myself, MAN! She's pretty to be so DARN STINKY! OK.....SO! the smelled smacked me in my face once again and i was thinking ok this doesn't make since, if she's gone, then where exactly is this smell coming from. WELL WHAT DO YOU KNOW!  The guy sitting next to me. OMG! It smelled like he hadn't brushed his teeth in dayssssss! He such carry a traveling toothbrush and toothpaste. PEOPLE if you have bad breath please carry a pack of gum, small bottle of listerine, tic-tac etc. WARNING: IF YOU TALK TO ME AND YOU HAVE BAD BREATH, I WILL TELL YOU. It's disrespectful and rude. WE ALL ARE TOOOOO GROWN TO WALK AROUND WITH BAD BREATH!

*this caused me not to be able to focused in class and i was HIGHLY PISSED!

FIX IT!

SCHOOL

As I was working today, an employee stopped me and the conversation went a bit like this.

Employee: "Hey, I have been trying to get in touch with you to talk to you about school."

(Keep in mind that I'm only 18 while she's 24, which caused me to be a bit confused.)

Me: (paused) "OOOOOK. UHHH...What do you need?"

Employee: "What is the University of Memphis like?"

Me: "It's cool, no complaints."

Employee: "I see that you're so focused and so young and have great things going for yourself. Im so discouraged now...financial problems and things going on with my family BUT, I really want to go back to school so I won't have to work in fast food all of my life. CIERA WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVATION?"

Me: "Im sorry to hear that. I really believe you should go back to school. Who wants to work in fast food all their life if it's not an interest. There is no way I will be here when im 25. I should be gone by the age of 21 ;). You can do anything you want if you put you mind to. But you have to ACTUALLY DO IT! DON'T JUST SAY IT.....DO IT. My motivation is my mother, the things I dream of, people who have no morals in life, Those things motivate me even more. Sometimes I dream of a great future and soon that dream will become reality. So once I wake up, I say to myself, "WOW! I must do this and this to get there." Which is why I awake everyday and attend class, come to work, and practice my moves!"

Employee: "I needed to hear that. I will give Memphis a call tomorrow to check things out and work my way back into school.?

Me: Great! Let me know if you need anything!

SO WHY DID I DECIDE TO BLOG ABOUT THIS?
I inspired someone. I was so happy to be able to talk to someone and give them my perspective on why you should attend college. NO, college may not be for everyone but, it is such a great way to success. No one said it would be a piece of cake but, that isn't a reason for you to give up. I love school, although it does get on my last nerves at times and casues me to become emotional some days but, quitting is not an option. I'm here for nursing and I WILL BECOME A NURSE! If there is anyone that you can talk to, to motivate or help in any way. BY ALL MEANS, DO SO! It feels great in the end ;)


*SO WHAT MOTIVATES YOU? TELL ME!

Blogging Huh?

Blogging is new for me but, I think it will become interesting as time rolls. How do you feel about it? Writing can be fun. Writing is a way to release. If you dont have anyone to talk to or any emotion you may feel, it is always great to write it down. Once writing it down, it's out of your mind, off your chest, you can finally feel relieved. It helps me a lot. How do you feel about blogging? In what ways can it help you? If you're ever unsure about something you can always receieve feedback from different minds, which may help to come to a conclusion or understand something better. My mind wonders about so much a day that sometimes I write in my journal at home, just to release. If I don't write it down, I'll keep thinking about it, which is not a great feeling ;(
As I write, i end up asking questions but never receiving feedback. Since im blogging, I will be able to posts my opinion, ideas, and questionable thoughts and receive feedback from others. This is interesting :)